“Love?”

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you

so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it

means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all

these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can

hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid

person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you.

They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you

or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes

hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in

the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’

turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts.

Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a

real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

And when your first love dies, it’s unbearable to think about..

But, after the shocking, bitter, jealous stages.. everything seems to

fall in place, you may have friendship, you may not.. but think about

what you shared and for the time being, you were together, you shared

that time.. Be happy and thankful for that.

And in the end..

Love will find you again, maybe stronger before

and it will have its good side.. We need to have hope for that.