“January”

I’m losing control.

Of myself, of my emotions towards you.

I’m terrified.

I’ve been here once before.

Gave away a part of me that I normally hold secure.

It was shattered, beaten and bruised.

It was a forever kind of hurt.

I held what I had left as close as I could.

I didn’t let anybody in.

No man, no friends.

and being in love again? Do you think it will heal my broken piece?

I have no trust. I am weak.

I feel vulnerable. I don’t want to hurt again.

But, it’s the risk you take.

I’m taking a risk for you.

I go to bed upset every night.

I get angry and jealous.

I don’t feel good enough for you, or anybody.

I’m afraid there’s always someone better, just because of past experiences.

Please, prove me wrong.

I need to be held and told that I won’t hurt like that again.

Be the keeper of my heart.

Hold it tight, keep it safe.

Don’t let me go through that pain again..

I would lose all hope.

Be with me, do not give up.

I am still able to love.

I hope that is enough.